Ugh!

I am so overwhelmed with frustration and stress its crazy. I'm running out of ways to fake the front like things are fine. I don't know what to do, what to think anymore, or which way to turn. I feel so alone and disappointed in myself. I see the light in the distant but it continues to be overshadowed by numerous things. I need to find an outlet really quick. I sometimes don't know who to trust, what's real or what's not. I'm sad all the time and drinking more & more. I've drank so much I'm becoming immune to the liquor. Man I don't know anymore like seriously I'm going I'm two steps away from a nervous break down. I'm very tired and really looking forward to branching away & doing my own thing. If I don't believe in myself....who will????